28th October 2005

Cigs: 0
Drinks: 0
Binges: *retches* don talk about food

oh lordy lordy lordy lordy.
the saving grace to my life currently is ptolemy's gate. i cant remember the last time ive been so depressed, so nauseous, so dizzy and no migraine-y. i dont think there was one. who is going to come and brave the bitchiness and make me feel better?

27th October 2005

Cigs: 2.5
Drinks: 1.5
Binges: blech

these bloody pills have me nauseous and bitchier and weepy 24/7 cant stand it. to think i volunteered for it. sigh. had nightmare bout Herself dying in plane crash. *shudder* cant stand to think it. DIP might actually leave me. only to haunt my nightmares, but still. water makes me retch, the thought of woater makes me retch. somebody save me. i've changed my mind sir, can i have a penis instead? sigh.

26th October 2005

Cigs: 0
Binges: chips
Drinks: 0

well tonight a drinkin we will go a drinkin we will goooooooooooooooo

DIP might actually be done! hadta make presentation bullets about SOE, yipes! found out that Herself has SMOKED! *keels over in dead faint* next thing she'll turn out to be a ganja connoiseur [man thats a hard word to spell]!

signed up for GRE in 28 days, hahahahahahaha madness. must find courses and universities and get their codes and write SOPs and go to german classes and study and work and sleep. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
right.

24th October 2005

Cigs: 0
Binges: 0
Drinks: 0

sighhhh goody goody is back. well Himself and Herself settling in, sleep all day and feel sick upon wakening, i foresee a FASCINATING week for them! lonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng talk wit Herself, hmmmm progress mightve been made after all.

Spent all weekend reading fantasy and making trips to istri guy to see if clothes were done. however, JOHNNY IS NOW UP!!!! wheeeeeeeeeeee.

zeenat sunglasses look nice hee. and work now beckons, since her invincible warrior goddess ness will be outta town for a coupla weeks the pressure shld let up, hee hee hee.

22nd October 2005

Cigs: er....10? 11? 7?
Binges: zip, zero, nix, nada
Drinks: 6

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh FINALLY the sweet taste of royal stag. lol. MISSED IT!. ladies night at sparks as ever, new twist being no power periodically, and from 8 - 9 which is when i was sitting there all dolled up, the big boys popping out, and completely alone. in he dark. no noise, no music. madness!!! however, da gals finally arrived, mush shrieking and rejoicing at meeting and going out after so long. hspb showed up wit beconti and other ivory coast chap called cedric, and so suddenly THERE WERE MEN! lol...

Himself and Herself back, fucking immigration custons took like 15 min so was recipient of several getting progressively miffeder fonecalls and muttered remakers about wiring for 45 minutes etc. sigh. am now also, apart from the one who doesnt listen, the one who cant finish what she stars and the stupid one, the one who wasnt at the airport on time.

bright side: CINNABON COOKIESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS *drool*

throat fucked.

well my lil jaguar wit the detachable tail now sits on the comp, actually kinda scary formt his angle. hazelnut syrup, peach tea, some beautiful jewellery, boookksssssssss - must now read em. sigh.

bought deepavali present yest, eldest, 3rd bartimaeus, hocus pocus, going postal [they didnt have thud], neither here nor there [wheeeee billy boy!!] und shantaram. and lost the bill. sigh.

21st October 2005

Cigs: 0 [hah! remedy being stay awya from the pisspot!]
Binges: 0
Drinks: 0 [but that will change tonight!!]

well im not. thank GOD!!!!! i cant breathe normally enough!! apart from that nufn much

20th October 2005

Cigs: 2
Drinks: 0 [waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! MUST do sumfin bout that!!!]
Binges: er...2. in the same day. *hangs head in shame*

well, eventful 2 days. much madness in the running of errands. still havent seen doc. *chews nails* terrible cramps in mornign though *fingers crossed*.

last night was appointment with hspb [hot spanish prof boy - though really, shld make it man] to return textbooks so kindly loaned. much sadness from no phonecall to make dinner plans after promises to do so. however, upon arrival at rendezvous asked if wld like to have dinner. hee hee hee *smirk* so did. terrifying similarities of taste and opinion. best quote from everning: george bush "no tiene cerebro. pues lo tiene pero en el culo." bush has no brain, well he has one but its in his arse. the humour arrives only in context of elegant restaurant, quiet terribly well mannered overwhelmingly NICE man saying it over dal makhani and paneer tikka.

preceding events.

bought CDs for colleague whose berfday it is today, even wrapped and tied wth ribbon, but meanly didnt use best ribbon and didnt make fancy bow - dont like her v much.

chatter with charmster gal after everso long - resulting in much joy.

tickets to bbay-pune booked, however family in pune impossible to contact!!! argh!

Himself and Herself arrive day after tomorrow, maid must be chased to clean out room. Himself sends kind email explaning how i can be at the airport at 715am to pick them up, when the scheduled arrival is 655am. and they have to do immigration, baggage claim and customs. *rolls eyes* and i have plans for much alcohol. actually physically long for the taste of whiskey. and work. and spanish lesson post that. urk!

hunt hunt hunt for flats. is on. must call prospective landlord 2 today.

am developing terrifying affinity for tea! green tea! chamomile tea! OHMYGOD!!!! IT IS THE TEA SICKNESS!!!!!!!

in madness to pay Himself's phone bill and make it to rehearsal on time turned car in inappropriate place, resulting in *CLUNK* as wheels went off concrete road and undercarriage hit concrete road. stayed there slweed across road spinning wheels in wet sand and mutter fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck under breath when group of nice gents on way home from post iftar namaz [presumably] stopped and offered to help. SIW out the window, hopped out gratefully and wholeheartedly assumed role of damsel in distress. dsicovered that must take ridge fast in reverse to get momentum, and not slow like i had been doing [yech hate past perfect, seems most imperfect]. and then he kindly offered to turn it for me, decided not the time to let SIW take over and smiled sweetly accompanied by "bahut bahut bahut bahut shukriya".

18th October 2005

Cigs: surprisingly, 1
Binges: chcolate
Drinks: 0 [DAMN gotta fix that]

have turned completely self destructive! slammed car door on own hand twice yest, nail is now numb. left thumb is neurological sez doc, since moving it doesnt hut, only doing particular things does. so suck it up and deal with the pain and take Bcomplex. sigh.

hyperventilatory phase over, life seems easier to deal with.

on the bright side, i just MIGHT have lost some weight! though looking down at the balloon projecting onto the keyboard i have my doubts.

found flat. well theoretically. must talk to landlord type person.

met with crochety old author, who has taken shine to me and has okayed everything without a murmur! huh. strange.

todays resolution [after the miserable failure of yesterday's] no coffee at work! HAH! lessee if that works.

17th October 2005

Cigs: 3
Binges: -1 [missed dinner so HAH!]
Drinks: 0

well here i is back in the blasted cubicle. mad rush to finish work on sunday, fell asleep at 7pm and thusly forced to wake up at FIVE AM to finish. sigh. note to self: no more impulse hanging out wit people.

well, strange flats. thats all i can say. one appears vacant opposite sagar, most appropriate for me, must investigate in greater details, or will lose it like last time. today in fact. little over budget, but well now that wont be a problem anymore. maybe will be able to entice people out into it too. *evil grin*

plan to be strong and NOT chat today. sigh. shall waste day checking to see if people are offline and THAT'S the reason they arent chatting!

KK sez thumb is befbeindkn2qiouhqnc well something to that effect, and shld show to doc if pain persists. however, today must go pay bill, shop for house, look at flat and get books from KK ALL BY 7pm!!!! thumb can wait til tom i guess.

16th October 2005

Cigs: 0
Binges: choclate
Drinks: 0

That said. i post form home today! on a sunday! horrors!! but wot can i say the fear has me in its grip. cant i have him for alternate weeks babe?

househunting hath seized me in its vice-like grip. whipped out classifieds to look for place. translations have been made to standardize the languages used which range from English, Hinglish and Tinglish Tamil, Telugu and Hindi.

convo 1:
me: good morning, im calling about the ad in the DC.
person: are you vegetarian?

Convo 2:
me: good morning, im calling about the ad in the DC.
person: it is only for families not bachelors. it has full vaasthu. the rent --
me: oh then its ok im not a family. sorry to bother you.
person: but not male bachelors
me: er. ok.
person: mins you are staying alone?
me: yes.
person: it is for families.
me: yes. you said so.
person: you come and see.
me: er...ok. [does this mean i cant have *boys over? will havta ask.]

convo 3:
me: good morning, im calling about the ad in the DC.
person: ojwnon inbijn;knam mekmrmrmrgnhmnbgn mmrb *slowly getting fainter and mumblier* ..... *fades out* *hangs up*

ah yes, an exciting day.

15th October 2005

Cigs: 1 [yesterday...i shall now proceed to blissfuly ignore the days i dont record]
Binges: 0
Drinks: 0

well apparently am muchly popular as abuse is regularly hurled for non-spewage of babble. attempting to oblige ma'am. the pressure isnt helping much. debating closing down all the other spaces.

it rains. and it rains. and it rain. and it never stops. it rains big wet blotchy drops that make splishing noises when they hit the concrete, steady small drops that never seem to stop, and fine mist that pretends to not be there, lulling one into sense of false security and feeling that the walls will stop dripping. for yes, indeed they are. newly redecorated room is slowly but surely being drowned. punshiment for wickedness? i wonder.

muchly romantic candles everywhere throwing soft glow, note to self, print fotos and post em.

unsure of jetlag - yest cldnt keep eyes open for love of anything and slept 3 hrs in eve - only to wake up at 6 this morn and lie in bed listening to the water go *SPLAT* *SPLAT* *SPLAT* on newspaper behind chest of drawers.

tragedy - college memento has been fungussed from being on stupid drippy wall and being made of cloth. *weeps*

Death in Print seems done - can only pray it wont be back. have terribly foreboding feeling it will be.

like living on own, begets q: do i like self now? good sign can now move out and keep cats.

first spanish class today. J the adorable one [my mark darcy? ooo i do hope so! only without the bad bits] has lent me spanking new textbooks that needed to be unwrapped form cellophane. love them. wish we had used em. course must be returned ASAP before the bruja finds out. warned him, but seemed willing to take risk. also said will call to make plans during week. go out and be polite or stay in be cosy. heheheh need i answer that?

seem to have strange affliction in left thumb, it hurrttsssses usssssss. sigh. will flash crepe bandage at doc mebbe she will volunteer consultation. never realised how lefthanded am, first reaction is reach for things with it, open things, carry things, catch things etc. gears!!! and the floods and the potholes must be battled with only one steering hand.

well i return to work. sigh.

11th October 2005

Cigs: 4?5?11? i have no idea
Binges: er....do they count if they replace meals?
Drinks: see first answer.

Well, it's been a while. thusly the haze about the statistics. course cld also be the fact that alcohol plays with memory. lol. trip was wunnerful. cept for family. that catharsis can happen at other time. am reminded of phrase from mentor: bridget jones wanton sex goddess. hee.

back at woik...for some reason dreffly chirpy hmmmm.... not one book has moved, sigh. a shoving i will go, a shovin i will goooooooooo

have developed strange crampy feeling in right hand huh carpal tunnel i hope not. total paranoia. but paranoia chased away. love when that happens.