18th october 2006

sigh
my paucnh hangs over my pants in a most depressing manner.

lately everytime i open this window i somply havent a thing to say. here is randomness

its wednesday, i actually ate breakfast out and everything else at home. magic instant chinizfud. computer being fucking pain the arse. it:
1. just stops running. like that. no messags no warning no hanging. one minute screen next minute blank.
2. has insert on almost all the time
3. the top keys not working are getting worse an stickier and persnicketyer
4. random hanging

mad crazy giagantic dinner party on friday. ia m cooking for TWENTY people!! will probably make too muhc food. sigh.

work work work. abstract submission. preentations. reading responses. hahahahaha.

i like cooking. i ove having my own place :)

HPP [hot portuguese prof lol] depressingly said: youre what? 21? 18? on our walk to subway today. and also pointed out that i hadnt noticed my stop. which meant hedidtn actively want me to linger. sigh. lol. did i mention he's 39? i was in shocl for three days. however, he is coming to the dinner.

friend and her mum wer here last weekend. along wiht flatmate H [FH]'s friends Golden God and China Doll. lol. thelatter in a most positive way. such beauty. i wa sonly expecting her so when i woke up in the morning to the exquisite sight of the GG i was left gasping in my sleep thinking ooooooooo i want to touch. have been invited to DC to han gout wiht them in nov. can i stand the pain???? SIGH

was cooked for and taken on a helicopter ride. i ahve fotos of it. shall post em when i get em.

Boy i Slept With [BSW] has been most strnge and standoffish. no love or anything, but thought we were going to be good friends. spent like 4 hours talking. but when he asked me to go see brad mehldau at the villagu vanguard [namedrop alert hehehe] i was not expecting SUCH vagueness. also PMS didnt hep. and then ran into him in lib today, no mean feat in itelf, since its impos to meet nyone without prior appointment in NYU, and he was even tranger. ws crushed at thought that things with someone i really wanted to be friends with were going down toilet over gratuituous and not really wanted sex. but then i was texted: lunch tomorrow? perhaps this i the normal BSW and since the making friends properly bit hasnt hppened yet i dont know!

am considering presenting a paper at berkeley [namedrop alert!] only i can figure out what one! unfortunately, wiritng a ocnference paper is part of the course, its the final test so to speak, for one course, and so im crewed. abstrct due 31st. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

its so hard to hang out wiht people, not just cos i dont live on campus. it really involves making the effot to take time out and set it up.

weather annoyingly warming up. grrrrrrrrrr. however need winter coat. hmmmmm. also need quilty thing. am planning on stealing form uncle's vst mnsion wiht 8 bedrooms and one inhabitant.

certain someone promised to come visit and shld know better than to promise till she's SURE. HMPH.

need backrub. groceries and 9 bound library boks. 1 hour walk with julius. who was most badly behaved. id larger he might even havebeen a beastie. which is te new name for the PooPoos. cow they aint Poo anymore. lol.

tango goes well. need to buy dance shoes. sigh. dreamy. swing was also GREAT fun going to swing dance thing tomorrow. aaaaaaaa my feets!!! also need to practice salsa and rumba before next friday
and start going dancing!!!
gah
only 2 sundays left of tango at the pier. shall got his weekend. by myself. and as someone to dance. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. right. and george bush will marry saddam hussein.

right
time to be prodcutive.

ps among other things the reaosn my text sint coloured anymore is that the comp wont let me,. tje minute i select ext and try and click on the button it cuts the text out. gotta love handmedowns. im not complaining! really!